Hangin'.On.

after all you put me through,
you think i despise you,
but in the end i wanna thank you,
cause you made me that much stronger.

this goes out to everyone who's ever hurt me, though it took me some time to see that in the long run it ended up being a positive experience. though i may still dislike you, i'd like to thank you. if it wasn't for all your torture and agony; i wouldn't be this stong now. you've made me who i am, and for that i thank you. all of your insults and annotations made me a fighter and taught me to never back down. you put me through what i thought was unbearable pain and suffering, but i pulled through and i ain't backing down. just remember though it's karma...what goes around comes around! without you i wouldn't know how capable i am of pulling through. thanks for making me a fighter.
much love,
tiff<3.

oh, and by the way; if there's someone out there who loves you and is willing to be by your side at every moment of everyday for whatever you made need, don't treat them badly and tell them to just leave you alone cause you never know when you may need them! just because your having a bad day or a terrible week, don't take it out on people who don't wanna hurt you. keep that up and in the end, you won't know who you have left.

NoLies.

have you ever been surrounded by people, yet felt so alone?
have you ever been scared to make a descision for yourself, because you know either way it'll be the wrong one for you?
have you ever been so scared to hurt someone else, that you put yourself through pain instead?
have you ever wondered if something happend to you, how many people would actually care?
have you ever kept yourself from doing something you love, because someone else doesn't approve of it?
have you ever wondered who you can trust, and who you can't?
have you ever wondered who your real friends are, and who are posers?
well i have. i go through atleast one of these a day. so it goes to show that no one ever really knows the real you. they may know the you on the outside; the you that everyone else see, and some know more of the inner you than others. but no one actually knows the full inner and outter you. there are things about us that if people found out they'd be in shock, cry, or even just be mad; not at you but at the world or life. i get so confused because at times i think i've figured it out, and i know who's my real friends are and who's just posing things go the other way. i hear that people who i thought were my true friends say stuff about me. i used to consider lots of people my best friends, but now i don't know how many i actually can say i have. backstabbing is one thing, but changing it to make it sound like the person you talked about was the bad person in this situation is another. criticizing and dissing someone and then telling people that the exact opposite happened and your the victim here, is just not right. cause then you're not only lying but making others turn against someone who has had an impact on their self-esteem enough asit is. so i'm sick of all of this. backstabbing friends can just say goodbye to my shoulder, because it's not there for them anymore. they can say shit about me all they want, but that won't keep me from being me and making sure people see who i really am, not who they make me out to be. so don't be a backstabber. it's the most hurtful thing to do to a friend none the less a best friend. friends have been there for you and given you everything they possibly can, stabbing them in the back is not returning the favour. they've at one point or another put everything on the line just for you. so the least you can do for them is praise them for it, because think about it they've saved you from humiliation and shame at one point in your life, even if it meant that they took it for you. stangers stab you in the front, boyfriends stab you in the heart, friends stab you in the back, but best friends don't carry knives.
much love,
tiff<3

Shattered
A mirror shattered in a million pieces,
With sharp pierced edges.
I won’t believe your lies,
Coming for you is quite the surprise.
Don’t begin feeling I’m the one to blame,
You dug the grave with your own shame.

[Chorus]
You try to hide your lies,
Living in your own fake disguise.
Never thought you’d commit all that backstabbing.
Truth comes out, leaving us bleeding.
If it wasn’t for your torture,
I wouldn’t be this much stronger.

Thought I knew you, thought I could trust.
Now moving on is an immediate must.
I’ll stand my ground, when everyone else is backing down.
I won’t let you win, or wear the crown.
There’s no way to heal theses wounds now,
No use in asking why or how.

[Bridge]
I have cried,
But never lied,
And held onto my pride.

[Chorus]
You try to hide your lies,
Living in your own fake disguise.
Never thought you’d commit all that backstabbing.
Truth comes out, leaving us bleeding.
If it wasn’t for your torture,
I wouldn’t be this much stronger.

I heard you’re going around, playing the victim now.
I wouldn’t know how to never back down,
If it wasn’t for your insults and condemnation.
The other side to the story shall not be left unwritten.
My pride shall be perceived and noticed.
Secrets of mine, left within the chest to rust.

[Chorus]
You try to hide your lies,
Living in your own fake disguise.
Never thought you’d commit all that backstabbing.
Truth comes out, leaving us bleeding.
If it wasn’t for your torture,
I wouldn’t be this much stronger.

Today.

every class today that braeden and i had spares we'd play the mcdonald's videogame! it's pretty sweet, it's on addicting games called mcdonald's videogame. it makes me really not wanna eat at mcdonald's but it's still pretty fun and it takes sometime to get used to it, and find new techniques. anyways today has been a pretty good day, i don't feel too good, but it's still been good! now i've gotta go help coach the middle years girls volleyball team. america's next top model last nite was pretty good too. i loved caridee's picture as the elephant woman! well i'll blog more later!
much love,
tiff<3

Drama.

high school drama, stuff that will make you never miss high school. thank god i'm outta here in less than a year. i mean, sure i'm gunna miss a lot of these peeps espescially since i've known most of them for my entire life. but i hate people who talk about how much they hate high school drama, how much people need to just chill out and how they will never have high school drama themselves; and then they start the drama. they don't ever see the other person's side, only their own. can you say selfish. then after they make you feel worthless as it is, they go and tell everyone that the whole thing is vice-versa than what really happened. they tell everyone that you're the one who started it, the one who brought their self esteem down, and even make the principal of the whole school think that you're the one being criticized. then the principal calls in the other ppl, the ones being criticized and made feel worhtless because the person who started it all, changed the whole story around and made you look like the bad person. then they call themselves mature and better than everyone because they dont' have this "drama". when they're more immature than someone 5years younger than them.
then gold diggers, in it for the money. how wrong is that. if you say you're not in it for the money, then stop using their money. you know there is such a thing as saying no, it's a simple one word answer. then what happens when you aren't together anymore? do you give them everything back or keep it? do you feel guilty that you can't give them what they're giving you?
anyways i really think people need to be themselves, stop criticizing others, and be respectful. friends aren't things that come and go. once you lose a friend..you usually won't ever get them back. so keep what/who you love close. don't forget you never know what words may be your last.
much love,
tiff<3

It's Who I Am...

here's some quizes i did, they're short to do and fun to see the answers and what they reveal about yourself!

Your Hidden Talent

You have the power to persuade and influence others. You're the type of person who can turn a whole room around. The potential for great leadership is there, as long as you don't abuse it. Always remember, you have a lot more power over people than you might think!

What's Your Hidden Talent?

Your Lucky Underwear Is Red

You're confident and bold, and your lucky red underwear will only make you more sure of yourself. You have a great zest for life, and you tend to take on impossible goals - and succeed. When it comes to love, it's hard for you to take the time to open up. You're too busy conquering the world. So if you're looking for a little more romance, put on your red underpants. And see where their passion takes you!

What Color Is Your Lucky Underwear?

You Are Smokin' Hot

You're a terrible flirt, a sharp dresser, and a party animal. Of course, you're totally sizzling too. And for you, being hot just comes naturally.

Are You Hot?

Your Heart Is Red

You're a passionate lover - you always have a huge fire in your heart. Too bad it's hard for you to be passionate about just one person! Your flirting style: Outgoing and sexy Your lucky first date: Drinks and dancing Your dream lover: Is both stable and intense What you bring to relationships: Honesty

What Color Heart Do You Have?

Gummy Bears

You may be smooshie and taste unnatural, but you're so darn cute.

What Kind of Candy Are You?

I Miss You by Blink 182

"The unsuspecting victim Of darkness in the valley We can live like Jack and Sally if we want Where you can always find me" You grew up a lot in 2004. And it was mostly a very good thing.

What 2004 Hit Song Are You?

L.O.V.E

love: feeling deep affection or passion for another person. love is something that brings out many feelings. you feel angry, sad, happy, loved, safe, and even scared. but that's the glory of it, being able to feel all of this -sometimes even at once- just for one person. we're scared to open up to one person completely and have them know you better than you know yourself. people hate to worry, but when we're in love we can't help but worry. we worry becuase we don't know where they are, if they're safe, who they're with, or what could happen when we're not there. sometimes, if you're jealous that's ok; just be sure to let them know, so then they know that you still care and how much you care. when you're in love before you can trust someone with your heart, you have to trust yourself. don't be afraid to give someone your heart, becuase in the end if you do get hurt, just remember your whole heart isn't broken it's gunna break at the top a little chip might come off but the main part of our hearts are the bottoms and they're always gunna be there. our hearts are way to big to break, it'd be like trying to take down the great wall of china -and i mean all of it- and that is a massive wall i tell ya.
remember though, love is about taking risks. someone once told me that there are difficulties in every relationship but if you love someone enough you'll work through it, with them. i have never forgotten this and i remind myself of it everytime something comes up. beaucse it is true, if you love someone enough you'll be able to discuss anything with them and be able to solve any issues that may come your way. love is about taking risks. so take risks, in the end it will build on the person you are.
if you love someone tell them, hearts are often broken by words unspoken. when you say "i love you" mean it. tell someone you love them every chance you get, life is too short and you never know what words may be your last. last but certainly not least; love like you've never been hurt!

forgive because life is too short to get sweet revenge,
laugh because life is too short to be serious,

love because life is too short not to feel it,

risk because life is too short to hold back.

much.love

tiff<3

Not Alone
When all you feel is hurt and pain,

I’ll find you and break that chain.
My hands reach out to you,
Take them, and I’ll mend what I need to.
I’ll make what I can right.

I won’t leave you, just hold you tight.

I don’t care about the situation,
I’m there for you if there’s a complication.
You may feel weak but you are strong.

Don't give up and you'll never be wrong.
When you’re out there on your own,

Don’t forget, you’re not alone.

Seeing you in pain makes me cry,
But I’ll spread your wings so you can fly.
Don’t start thinking you should have a doubt,
Because I’m here to get you out.
I’m here for you so don’t forget,
We’ll get through it, even if we break a sweat.

I don’t care about the situation,
I’m there for you if there’s a complication.
You may feel weak but you are strong.

Don't give up and you'll never be wrong.
When you’re out there on your own,

Don’t forget, you’re not alone.

Our memories you can’t replace,
And none of then can you erase.
So put on your million dollar smile,
And we’ll come out breaking the tile.
You’ll always have my shoulder,

So don’t be afraid to use it as you get older.

You’re strong,
Never wrong.
On your own,
You’re not alone.

I don’t care about the situation,
I’m there for you if there’s a complication.
You may feel weak but you are strong.

Don't give up and you'll never be wrong.
When you’re out there on your own,

Don’t forget, you’re not alone.

I’ll be here by your side forever,
And my heart will hold you together.
Whatever it is, you can run to me.
Then I will help you see,
You can get through this.
We won’t swing and miss.

I don’t care about the situation,
I’m there for you if there’s a complication.
You may feel weak but you are strong.

Don't give up and you'll never be wrong.
When you’re out there on your own,

Don’t forget, you’re not alone.

I don’t care about the situation,
I’m there for you if there’s a complication.
You may feel weak but you are strong.

Don't give up and you'll never be wrong.
When you’re out there on your own,

Don’t forget, you’re not alone.

HeartYou.

it is so not cool to take someone's own ideas and call them your own. sure, it's ok to use the idea and tweak it to make it your own, but don't take the whole idea and say it's yours, when it's not.
so with this being said, don't change yourself to be like someone else either. people love you for you; it's who you are, not who you could be. so don't change cause you like someone and think they're better or cooler than you are. when this happens you may start to lose friends who loved you for who you were. changing yourself does nothing. when you act more like someone else than yourself, you're in their shawdow. why fit in; when we're born to stand out... being yourself is the best you can be. being someone else doesn't make you better, it makes you fake. so be true to yourself; if changing is what you really want, well no one is stopping you. in the end though, you can't blame someone for not wanting to be as close as you as they once were because they were friends with you for being unique and you.
always be yourself and remember, why fit in; when we're born to stand out.
be sexy, be true, be crazy, be you!
much.love
tiff<3